Cutypi22's Journals

GOODBYE

im leaving this stupid place. im sorry to anyone who cares, which im sure you dont. well, bye.

YAY!! shout outs!

these shout outs are for the people i really care about!

robby23-i know i just started going out with you, but i think we can be perfect for eachother! I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH!!

batgrl22-you are soooooooooo awesome! i love talkin to you, and you mean ALOT to me!! Love you!!

xxryryxgoesxrawrxx-dude! i love you soooooo much! we have the most awesome conversations! and our investigations are waaaay fun! hmm i dont think we ever finished our last one. we need to! Love you!!

panic1isnt4emo-OMG!! you love emo boys just as much as i do! you are the bestest friend anyone could ask for! Love you!

xxaaronxx-i love you so fuckin much!! you are awesome in every way, and you are still my #1 buddy! Love you!!

emoshane-i know i havent talked to you that much, but you are soooo cool! we get along great and i know you are a great friend! Love you!!

saintemo7-you are very different from anyone i have ever met! but, different in a good way! you ae a good person, and i know you have a big heart! Love you!!

broken4life-YAY! you are gonna be a daddy!! i hope everything goes well with Ashley and your new baby! you mean so much to me! and our Flava-Flav popsicles are soooo awesome!! just like you! Love you!!

kyle45-even though i havent talked to you that much , you are waaaaaaaaaaaaay rad! and we both like the same kind of music! go us!! Love you!

chelsealovesbones-YAYAYAYAY!!!!!!!!!!! i looove you sooo much! we are sooo awesome and we know it! Love you!!

Christine- you dont have a buzznet, but you are my bestest buddy in the whole wide world! we have been through so much together, and you mean soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much to me! i want to be friends with you forever! and i know i can count on you for anything, and i can tell you anything. we are some weird girls, but we are awesome for it, and everyone loves us! Love you soooooooooo much!!

IM SO CONFUSED!!

i dont know what to do! im scared and confused and hurt! no one knows how i feel because i dont even know how i feel. i want to know why i feel this way, and i want to tell someone about it. but im sure no one cares. im confused about myself and how im changing and growing. not just on the outside, but on the inside too. im confused about boys and girls and what im becoming. im confused about getting into drugs or drinking because ive been told not to get into that by everyone my entire life, but im curious to know what its like. im confused about whether ill ever amount to anything good. im confused about everyone around me and what everyone is telling me. im confused about my friends, and whether or not they are the kind of friends i want. AND IM SO CONFUSED ABOUT EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!! I JUST WANT SOMEONE TO HELP ME!

My Heart

My heart hurts so bad. i fel alone with no one there to comfort and hold me. im sure no one cares, but im in so much pain. its hard to explain, but i look at all my friends, and how they have boyfriends or girlfriends that mean so much to them, and how much they love them. then i look at me, and i have no one. im all alone. no one wants me as their girlfriend. im ugly and fat. but, a wave of depressing nausea washes over me every time i realize how alone i really am. its so scary how i feel. i dont like it at all. i have no idea how to deal with this, and im so confused. i love someone, but i know they dont love me back. and he is already in a relationship. i dont want to feel these heartaches and waves of nausea anymore. i want to be a lovesick fool! i want to be head-over-heels in love with someone! and it sucks, because no one on the face of this earth will love me that much. and im tired of crying myself to sleep at night knowing that i can love someone with all my heart, and they cant and wont love me back.

Amy

the title of my journal

why wont anyone talk to me anymore? i try to talk to people, and they just blow me off! but, you know what? im used to getting rejected and being disliked. so, just keep blowing me off, so i can feel even more like a piece of shit. so thanx to all the people who have rejected me in the past, and still wont talk to me, cause hey, im used to it.

Its me birthday!!

YAY!!! ITS MY BIRTHDAY! AND ITS ON THE LUCKIEST DAY OF THE CENTURY! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You can be anything

Does anyone ever tell you what you have to be? Don't listen to them! You can be anything you want!
Be happy! Be joyous! Be different! Be creative! Be colorful! Be sweet Be cute! Be cute! Be lovable! Be unique! Be stupid! Be smart! Be relaxed! Be embarressed! Be scared! Be bold! Be rebelious! Be bright! Be sad! Be Be awesome! Be exciting! Be jumpy! Be Be active! Be over-the-top! Be charming! Be fake!
But most importantly, just be you!!

If you guys have any more emotions or feelings you would like me to add, feel free to tell me!

Earth

Earth. A peaceful, carefree snowglobe that we adore with all our
hearts. Whirlwinds of blues, greens, reds, every color you can think
of. Cultures, groups, different ways of life. Flying, crawling, every
creature captured in a worldwide net. Places to go, people to see, so
many things to do.Live, love, laugh, and cherish every moment of this
life you cant get back.

I know its wrong, but its true.

theres this boy on here that i love and i cant hide me feelings any longer. but im too late. he loves someone else now. i wish i had said something sooner, cause now it breaks my heart. i'm friends with the girl he loves, but i cant tell her.i wish he knew how i felt, cause i cant stand to see him with her. so im in love wih the boy whos in love with another girl and theres nothing i can do. i know its wrong, but its true.

I dont know anymore

when i saw you, i wanted to talk to you, i wanted to see you, i wanted to hold you. but now when i see you, i think of all the mean things you said. you said its over, and that you hate me. you told me you loved me, but i dont know if i can believe you. you said you wanted to be with me forever, but you betrayed me, and left a broken girl behind.

i dont know if i will ever be loved again.