***♥♥♥Your so sensitive... I am a machine♥♥♥***

im leaving this stupid place. im sorry to anyone who cares, which im sure you dont. well, bye.

these shout outs are for the people i really care about!

robby23-i know i just started going out with you, but i think we can be perfect for eachother! I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH!!

batgrl22-you are soooooooooo awesome! i love talkin to you, and you mean ALOT to me!! Love you!!

xxryryxgoesxrawrxx-dude! i love you soooooo much! we have the most awesome conversations! and our investigations are waaaay fun! hmm i dont think we ever finished our last one. we need to! Love you!!

panic1isnt4emo-OMG!! you love emo boys just as much as i do! you are the bestest friend anyone could ask for! Love you!

xxaaronxx-i love you so fuckin much!! you are awesome in every way, and you are still my #1 buddy! Love you!!

emoshane-i know i havent talked to you that much, but you are soooo cool! we get along great and i know you are a great friend! Love you!!

saintemo7-you are very different from anyone i have ever met! but, different in a good way! you ae a good person, and i know you have a big heart! Love you!!

broken4life-YAY! you are gonna be a daddy!! i hope everything goes well with Ashley and your new baby! you mean so much to me! and our Flava-Flav popsicles are soooo awesome!! just like you! Love you!!

kyle45-even though i havent talked to you that much , you are waaaaaaaaaaaaay rad! and we both like the same kind of music! go us!! Love you!

chelsealovesbones-YAYAYAYAY!!!!!!!!!!! i looove you sooo much! we are sooo awesome and we know it! Love you!!

Christine- you dont have a buzznet, but you are my bestest buddy in the whole wide world! we have been through so much together, and you mean soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much to me! i want to be friends with you forever! and i know i can count on you for anything, and i can tell you anything. we are some weird girls, but we are awesome for it, and everyone loves us! Love you soooooooooo much!!

i dont know what to do! im scared and confused and hurt! no one knows
how i feel because i dont even know how i feel. i want to know why i
feel this way, and i want to tell someone about it. but im sure no one
cares. im confused about myself and how im changing and growing. not
just on the outside, but on the inside too. im confused about boys and
girls and what im becoming. im confused about getting into drugs or
drinking because ive been told not to get into that by everyone my
entire life, but im curious to know what its like. im confused about
whether ill ever amount to anything good. im confused about everyone
around me and what everyone is telling me. im confused about my
friends, and whether or not they are the kind of friends i want. AND IM
SO CONFUSED ABOUT EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!! I JUST WANT SOMEONE TO HELP ME!

My heart hurts so bad. i fel alone with no one there to comfort and hold me. im sure no one cares, but im in so much pain. its hard to explain, but i look at all my friends, and how they have boyfriends or girlfriends that mean so much to them, and how much they love them. then i look at me, and i have no one. im all alone. no one wants me as their girlfriend. im ugly and fat. but, a wave of depressing nausea washes over me every time i realize how alone i really am. its so scary how i feel. i dont like it at all. i have no idea how to deal with this, and im so confused. i love someone, but i know they dont love me back. and he is already in a relationship. i dont want to feel these heartaches and waves of nausea anymore. i want to be a lovesick fool! i want to be head-over-heels in love with someone! and it sucks, because no one on the face of this earth will love me that much. and im tired of crying myself to sleep at night knowing that i can love someone with all my heart, and they cant and wont love me back.





                                                       Amy

why wont anyone talk to me anymore? i try to talk to people, and they
just blow me off! but, you know what? im used to getting rejected and
being disliked. so, just keep blowing me off, so i can feel even more
like a piece of shit. so thanx to all the people who have rejected me
in the past, and still wont talk to me, cause hey, im used to it.

YAY!!! ITS MY BIRTHDAY! AND ITS ON THE LUCKIEST DAY OF THE CENTURY! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Does anyone ever tell you what you have to be? Don't listen to them! You can be anything you want!
Be happy! Be joyous! Be different! Be creative! Be colorful! Be sweet Be cute! Be cute! Be lovable! Be unique! Be stupid! Be smart! Be relaxed! Be embarressed! Be scared! Be bold! Be rebelious! Be bright! Be sad! Be Be awesome! Be exciting! Be jumpy! Be Be active! Be over-the-top! Be charming! Be fake!
But most importantly, just be you!!




      If you guys have any more emotions or feelings you would like me to add, feel free to tell me!

Earth. A peaceful, carefree snowglobe that we adore with all our
hearts. Whirlwinds of blues, greens, reds, every color you can think
of. Cultures, groups, different ways of life. Flying, crawling, every
creature captured in a worldwide net. Places to go, people to see, so
many things to do.Live, love, laugh, and cherish every moment of this
life you cant get back.

theres this boy on here that i love and i cant hide me feelings any
longer. but im too late. he loves someone else now. i wish i had said
something sooner, cause now it breaks my heart. i'm friends with the
girl he loves, but i cant tell her.i wish he knew how i felt, cause i
cant stand to see him with her. so im in love wih the boy whos in love
with another girl and theres nothing i can do. i know its wrong, but
its true.

when i saw you, i wanted to talk to you, i wanted to see you, i wanted to hold you. but now when i see you, i think of all the mean things you said. you said its over, and that you hate me. you told me you loved me, but i dont know if i can believe you. you said you wanted to be with me forever, but you betrayed me, and left a broken girl behind.


                               i dont know if i will ever be loved again.

Your in a field,all alone.the sky turns dark and gray, and you can hear
thunder crashing overhead. you feel the coolness of the raindrops
against your face as you become wet.you see flashes of lightning , and
you think, ITS NOT GONNA STRIKE ME, IM TOO FAR AWAY. so you laugh in
the face of death. suddenly you feel like someone just hit you in the
head witha steel baseball bat.you had been struck by lightning by the
great and powerful Zeus. as you fall to your death, down, down, down,
past the stars and galaxies, you hear Zeus laughing at your
foolishness.Then, you feel strong,cold hands wrap around your neck. you
look up and see Hades dark eyes staring into yours.Hades has you
now,and you know you cant escape his wrath.now your going to burn and
rot in hell, for underestimating the powere of a God.

If i ever lost you, i wouldn't know where to look. I'd look high, and low, and in every little nook.
If i ever lost you,theres no where you could be found,not in the sky, the water, or even on the ground.
If i ever lost you,I'd search, and search, and search, until i found exactly where you lurke.
If i ever lost you,I'd cry, and cry for days,It'd be like a roller coaster, oor one big, giant maze.
If i ever los you, which i hope i never do,I'd look, and look, until i got to be right next to you.

Just Because im Emo
doesnt mean im a freak
doesnt mean i dont have fun
doesnt mean i have no friends

Just Because im Emo
doesnt mean i have to wear different clothes
doesnt mean i have to wear lots of makeup
doesnt mean i have to cut

Just Because im Emo
it doesnt give you the right to hate me
doesnt mean you have to make me cry

          Just let me be me.

Why does Josh i gnore me like im nothing?? i cant figure it out, i try
to talk to him, and he wont talk to me. hes makin me cry,and im tired
of it. i want u to talk to me Josh, im ur gf and we barely know
anything about eachother, CUZ U DONT TALK TO ME!!!! 

this is my prayer for him:

God, will u please let Evan live?
God, let him live a long happy life.
God,make him happy.
God,just let him live.





Amen.


                                                ~Amy~

Evan, if u read this, just know that im always there for u and u can talk to me about anything.

                             I love you.


         PS:  if u read this, please pray for him. he had an asthma attack and theres a 50/50 chance he could die.but if we all pray for him every night, he will be ok.  i know he will.

Exciting life.

Very special to me.

Always there for me.

Not preppy.

Can be a great friend if u get to know him.

Often makes me laugh.

Open to anyones concerns.

Loves his friends!

Yup, hes awesome!

Zany!

Always there for me.

Caring.

Kan be a big help when your sad.

Coke is her favorite beverage.

Happy!

Ryan ross is her idol.

Ice cream is her favorite dessert!

Smart

Tottally awesome!

In love with Justin.

Nice

Emo!

If you think u want to cut or need to cut,DONT DO IT! i thought that
cutting would make me happier and everything would be ok,but it didnt.
it brought me lots of pain and everyone was dissapointed in me.some
people say that they have to cut to get rid of the pain, but thats not
true.it actually brings u more pain.i would never cut in my entire life
again.i almost lost my best friend Christine. when i told her, she got
really mad and told her mom. then her mom told my mom, and i was really
mad at Christine for telling. but if she wouldnt have told, i probobly
would have kept on doing it and i could have killed myself. If u think
u want to cut, before you do, ask urself this question, Why would i
hurt myself over something someone else did?